More self-indulgent whining about my lack of life.

[duane_kc]

So.

Acquaintance of mine, nice girl, smart, witty, similar interests, posts today about problems with her love life.

No big deal normally, I'm *there* for my friends, y'all know me...but this post really disturbs me for some reason.

"Self," sez I, "why does this bug you so much?" "I dunno," Self replies, "let's think about it for a while."

So I go out for dinner. While I'm sittin' there, the Id comes screaming and snarling up out of my subconscious and puts a boot through my hypothalamus. "You are an IDIOT!"

See, I've been gettin' kind of mixed signals from her. I'd like to get to know her a bit better, take her out, that sort of thing. She seems receptive to the idea, but the couple of times I've asked, I get blown off or she's got something else to do, that sort of thing. Not really sure whether she's actually interested or not.

And it strikes me that she's in the same boat with her guy friends, that I am with her, and *that's* what has me so annoyed at myself.

Y'know, every time I do a Tarot reading for myself, my significator comes up as the Hermit.

Time I just admit that it's permanent and quit tryin'.

Anybody actually needs me, I'll be right where I always am, livin' in a basement, beatin' computer-generated aliens with a crowbar.

Comments

[ladyotterfae.livejournal.com]

hrm. well, I'm willing (when I'm feeling less crappy, anyway), and within reason, because I actually need _more_ time alone than I get, but also need more pleasant social-type time.

going to have to figure out something, though, 'cause most of my social time is here or StLouis. I'll try to make it there in two weeks for party, etc, but not sure what else I can swing in the immediate future. thoughts?